I want advice from you all. I am in class 12. I have a crush on my chemistry teacher since last 3 years. Her calm attitude, kindly and helpful nature, and her body , and specially the suits she wears, with lots of design work on them, has always attracted me towards her.
I have a lust towards her. I tried to touch her whenever I got a chance, and sometimes touched her also but there was a fear in my mind of her reaction, although she never reacted.
On the last day of my 11th class, some students were clicking pics with her, so I thought I should too. I went to her and she agreed. She put her hand on my shoulder, and I put my hand on her waist, but my hand was shaking due to fear. In 12th she started teaching us. I was building communication with her.
I got the chance to fulfill my lust in practicals. I touched her hips in every practical, and one time, I slightly pressed her hips also, it was a heaven like feeling. I have felt the shape, size and even the strap of her panty, the best part was mam never reacted.
Yesterday, she was taking a lecture and one of my friend asked a numerical question. He was sitting behind me with another boy and I I was sitting alone so she sat with me on the desk and started explaining the answer. Her one leg was folded and her thigh was visible. I turned slightly backward and suddenly put my hand on her knee. I knew that she will not react and I was correct.
After 4-5 secs, I moved my hands slowly and also started pressing her thighs a little bit, My penis was fully hard. But as I reached higher, she immediately put her hand on my hand and pushed it away. I got very scared and my heart was pumping.
Now, I am confused. Today, when she came in the class, she asked me why I didn’t participate in an event? I told her that I was not interested. She replied that whenever there is a woman, you are interested. The whole class started laughing.
I am thinking should I proceed in my relationship with her as she knows everything now. What do you all think?