Sunny singh, I saw your earlier question, combining both these, it seems you are a bisexual.
Nothing to be ashamed of, its a part of life, what our sexual orientation is, that is dtermined before birth. So accept that. Its upto you how you want to handle the situation, getting married and explore both worlds or stay single, its upto you.
Being gay or bisexual is not on your hand. Its the 23rd pair f chromosom that decides our sex and orientation, we are born with that. One eample is, when an egg splits to two and when sperms meet the eggs a twin is conceived. The study says, as the same egg was there, the DNA can be 100% matching for twins yer, one out of eight twins has a chance that both will be gay. Most cases wither both are heterosexual or one is hetero the other is hemosexual. Meaning, the baby has no hand how he is going to be act in future, its decided before.
Talk about your eighbor, well, this happens almost everywhere, we have people like these who look for a candy male ass, specially on tender age, and knows how to keep them quite. These predators are everywhere, sometimes they are known, mostly they are not known even to their family. These twink lovers can sense who is a probable target and what to do to keep them quite. What was your bait I dont know, but staying in a life like this for 8 years, you planned to move. That gives a clear idea, you were never against this.
I dont hate these predators, nor I have any sympathy for these young boys Something happens in our lif, often we cannot control that. These are one of those situatons. What you didd, thats what you did, Leave upto there and lets look at now. You are having a sex life with a girl, making a U turn from homosexual to heterosexual. But now you are missing that feeling. Thats what it counts.
Sexuality can be hetero, homo or bisexual. there are more, not important here. The point is, when you are physically, psychologically and sexually attracted to same sex people or opposite sex, that determines your sexuality. If you have both, you are a bisexual. You have to accept that. If you think homosexuality is bad and you should get married to a girl and supress your physical need, you are going to deprive a woman from her right. Dont force yourself, you tested both the sides, and possiblly you liked both, be proud to be a bi-sexual and enjoy best of both world.
That's all I had to say, identify yourself, have more sex with male and female to be sure if you are bisexual or want to stay as homosexual. If you start missing a girl, it sure is a case of bisexuality. Have fun in life, never blame others, only thing you can do is, dont be a predator and find twinks.